What Path Are You On?

 

 4:21 a.m.
It is possible to take a path that will lead you nowhere — well, nowhere you want to be in life.

This path you accidentally take is a result of the small decisions you make every day. They are decisions you make all the time that don't always seem very important, and in many cases you are not even aware them. These thoughts often come disguised as excuses or things you tell yourself on repeat or decisions you don’t see as life-changing when in fact they are very significant.

Long ago I shelved everything inside of me and walked down the path of mediocrity for many years. I woke up every day feeling like I wasn’t the right person. It felt weird. All of my hopes remained hopes and any opportunities to embrace who I was or what I wanted were ignored.

In light of breaking free of this temporary, semi-isolated, existence we all find ourselves in at this moment, do you really want to continue to accidentally walk down the path of mediocrity and be separated from where you want to be in life?

Instead how about you try to keep going when you don’t feel like it, be the best you can be to the people that matter and remember quality is subjective, examine every part of your life and remove the things that cause atrophy, and do the small things well.

We are not born mediocre. We make little decisions day by day that lead us down the path we call “unsuccessful”. So remember, if they are decisions we make, that means we are in control and we can get on the right path.

 

TJ

Living Life...

While you're in it, life seems epic. Fiery, tenuous, and unpredictable. But once you have some distance from it, everything seems to shrink, until it's almost out of focus.

When you look back over your life, or try to put it down on paper, You can see more of it now than ever before. And yet it seems somehow diminished. Humble. Almost old-fashioned. So you begin scanning your life, looking for something interesting or beautiful. You see an ordinary house, with an ordinary yard, on an ordinary street. It looks smaller than you remember. You once had wild dreams and obstacles and risks looming all around you, but now they look smaller too.

You remember giants and goddesses and villains, but all you see is ordinary people assembled in their tiny classrooms and work-spaces, each of us moving around in little steps, like tokens on a game board. No matter how many times you rolled the dice, it was always these little moves, here and there. Do a little work. Take a little rest. Make a little friend. Throw a little party. Feel a little boredom. Have a little rebellion. There are so many of these token moments that were supposed to represent some other thing. You keep adding them all up, as if there was something you forgot to count, some stash of glory that fell off the back of a truck.

You may love the life you have for everything it is, and even though you know it isn't groundbreaking; you wouldn't change a thing. Maybe when you first started building the life you wanted, you left plenty of room for what might happen, and somehow lost track of what was happening.

Or maybe you were never 'in it' to begin with. Maybe you knew even then that this wasn't the world you expected. A world so low and common you tried to keep your distance, floating somewhere above it, where nobody else could look down on this life you built.

Nobody else but you.

kj